Wait a sec, is this revenge? Cause I was getting ready for karate last night and summer uniform involves the dojo t-shirt which is $12 and I’ve been avoiding asking my aunt about it, but all my t-shirts are like neon or tie-dye and when I dropped off my aunt’s letter of three-months-notice I told sensei I’d be there on Tuesday, so last night I told my aunt about the t-shirt thing and she tried to put me off, she said “ask them today if they even have your size and then on Saturday we’ll see” (dude, the top half of me is not that fat! it’s my ass that nothing fits), and I pointed out that I had not a suitable t-shirt to wear today, and she gave me this intensely disgusted look and tried to trick me into breaking a twenty so she could point out that i had enough money and force me to spend it (all our interactions around money are this dance of trying to get me to admit I have some, which I bloody refuse to admit I have maybe a hundred dollars left because then she’ll force me to spend it all on petrol and shit, and then I will be totally dependent on her while trying to move out, she says this will Motivate me to get a job, I’m not sure if she actually believes that or just wants to control my spending like all good abusers do)…
…where the fuck was i? right. so i claimed i could not break a twenty, which was actually true because i spent all my small bills at pride, and i claimed i had paid for the pride dance from my patreon/paypal account and didn’t have any cash, which was a lie because that would be complicated and full of atm fees because the dance was cash at the door, and she first claimed she had only one twenty in cash to last her till payday and i had to break it because she refused to give it to me and let me bring change back, which is not the way to get me to play your game, pretending you trust me and then acting betrayed is way more effective at actually upsetting me, but then she produced two fives and asked if I had two bucks and I made equivocal noises, because as mentioned I actually didn’t have two ones, so she told me to scrape up the other two dollars from the tin of laundry quarters, which I did
and then she told me she was going to bisbee and might be out late, and then i went to karate and i have not seen her since? but the cat howled all night cos he was sad she was gone, and now the blinds are open again so she has been here at some point
and i’m not sure if the staying out all night and not calling is some kind of weird revenge for making her spend money on me, like reasserting her power over me some way. Possibly?